God fucking damn it. I hate Alyx so fucking much. I legitimately cannot see a picture of her without immediately getting diamonds. Even the most unassuming, candid drawing sends my loins into the atmosphere. Even the most unflattering, poorly drawn illustration of her left foot will render me physically unable to function until I whip my dick out and furiously beat my meat to a 4.6GB fap folder dedicated entirely to her. I've tried jerking it to other characters, I really have, but I look at them and I feel nothing. I don't think I'll realistically be able to function romantically anymore because no sight connects to my heart (or my penis) like Alyx's beautiful visage. I would give everything up, including family and friends and my pets, to simply have the opportunity to watch her casually walk in the forest while I passionately squeeze my hog to the sight of her powerful glutes pushing against the boundaries of her tight skin. I wouldn't even want her to look at me, because I don't think I would last more than a few seconds, and I know I'd just want more even though my body is only capable of so much. These thoughts invade every vacant space in my brain, they invade every spare moment of silence I have throughout any given day, 24/7 and 365. I'm utterly hopeless as a human being; I'm an absolute husk, a vessel who exists only to look up Alyx's beautiful face, gorgeous curvy body, and fucking coom to her blasian mutt skin. God fucking dammit.