R: 19 / I: 6
Christmas family fight
Last night I went to my parent home for a holiday meal.
Last time I've been visiting my parents was almost half a year ago.
My mother even called my today before I went and told me what she was cooking and that I should not eat so much beforehand because she is preparing three different meals only for me. You could tell she really was excited and happy that I'm coming visiting her.
So I went to my parents and my mom served me a home maid pizza that was great. The moment I started eating it with a fork, my mom laughed and asked if I needed a knife. This moment I went batshit insane, started screaming at my mom while still having food in my mouth for 15 mins about how the fuck she every time dares telling me what to and even how to eat and comment every fucking shit I do and how I couldn't ever come to my parent and eat in piece even once because every time I start eating there she does that stuff.
My mom didn't even say anything, turned on the TV and didn't look at me a single time I sat there and ate the food. You could tell she was crushed.
After I was finished eating, my mom swallowed her anger and talked normally to me and asked me how I was and how things were going. She even gave me 150 EUR as Christmas present, which I declined. Also I didn't bring a present myself.
After that screaming I was so upset, that I stayed at my parents home for only two hours and then I went home.
Tbh, I somewhat expected me to be sorry about what I've, but I don't feel anything. Really, there isn't a single thing that I feel.
My father tbw didn't say a word, because he is a cuck who is afraid of me (my mom told me years ago).
So, how were your Christmas holidays?
t. autist with schizoid, schizotypal and narcissistic traits (my parents don't know)