Why are you giving me advice and then continue to insult me in the same breath? That's quite the bipolar/schizo thing to do there.
Also it's not like i wanted this situation or anything. I've been abused and sabotaged/made financially dependant from an extremely early age. Insulting me is completely relevant to any of it; You don't call someone that has had his legs sawn off by an assailant "pathetic" for not being able to walk on his own either, because that
would *actually* be pathetic on your
part. There is nothing pathetic about the guy that got assaulted through no fault of his own.
But yeah imma try and look into this white noise shit even though i doubt it will help, i have a white noise-type playlist running and the constant crazed drunkard banging against the walls can be hard right thru regardless